More bad tests....sigh:::::
I went to the pulmonary specialist for the pulmonary function test
I didn't do very well.
Since Nov o9. When I had lung function of 66%
I am now down to 43%.
I guess I should be getting use to that now.
But it's getting so hard to stay positive.
I will post the time of my surgery later today when they call with the time from the hospital.
Dr explained to me how I "could" end up on a respirator.
But , he does not think that will happen.
If it does he told me not to worry.
I will be heavily sedated.
That when in surgery everyone is always on a respirator and their lungs become lazy.
With my problems my lung "could" be even lazier and not want to work.
And I would have to be weaned off the machine.
I am praying this doesn't happen.
It scares me :(
Came home and had a real hard time later that evening.
Feeling sorry for myself ,
I guess you could say.
Wanted to talk to my Dad. I miss him so much.
But I knew if I called him I would cry like a baby....
So I didn't call.
I am not suppose to have breast cancer and having surgery and treatments I kept thinking.
I am suppose to be going to see my Dad this fall in NC
I haven't seen since he moved 4 years ago.
Its not fair....It was all planned...It's just not fair.
The more I thought about it the more I cried.
I love you Dad and wish this wasn't happening..
I wish I was coming to see you.
I LOVE YOU!!!
I was so blessed to have two such wonderful parents.
I love you too Mom.I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't been here for me thru all of this
And He is Now At Peace
10 hours ago