I haven't had the time to post in the last few days.I'm sorry about that.
I know many of you are wondering how all my appointments have went.
I really was feeling a bit overwhelmed by it all .Seems when I hear more "news" I am knocked for a loop a bit for a few days.
I am better now. Sometimes it just takes a few days to wrap your head around it.
So heres where were at now.
I went to my first oncologist appointment last Thursday.
After explaining to me what type of chemo he is going with and telling me the side effects
He goes thru my scans via the computer.
Bubble cysts in liver...Large Cysts in right ovary
( No worries he says...I have to have a total hysterectomy since my cancer is estrogen positive)
Spots on my thyroid and spots on my lungs....
WHAT.....STOP....HOLD UP.... You mean my thyroid (I dumbly say this)
No he says...You have spots on your thyroid AND lungs.
I am in shock....SPOTS ON MY LUNGS???????????
I felt fear...
Then he said to Tom and I.
"I am concerned these are cancer"
GREAT....just great I think...what next?
Then he tells me they are very small 5m and will be watched for growth thru scans every 3 months.
I felt shock.....then ANGER !!!!
I insisted on the nuclear body scan and CT scans so I could know just how far the cancer had spread from my breasts,
I was told they were all clear!!!!
Since then I have been told each and every visit of things they found.
Where were my rights as a patient to know?
Why did they lie and tell me they were clear?
Anger....that's what I felt. I had a right to know all of this from the start.
Chances are I still would have went thru the double mastectomy and fought
But they for whatever reason decided to tell me a lie.
That my scans were clear when in fact they were not.
I ask...Will the chemo make those spots go away?
He said it could...will just have to watch it.
I pray it does.
So I was upset...then got MAD after I left his office.
I still cant believe they wouldn't tell me all this before now.
I then went and got my hair cut VERY short on Sunday before chemo.
The pictures does not show it very well. It looks longer then it is.
It's almost shaved on the back and side. Will make my hair falling out easier
Those of you on Facebook have already seen these pics.
But I will add them here for those that didn't.
Tom took a close up pic of me that evening and I was so tired. It shows on my face.
But it does show the hair the best.
Here's some more with my goats...and the baby geese that have grown almost as big as the adults
They want to do that before the heart catch , as I will be on Plavix if they have to put a stent in.
They are all working together to make this fall in to place so I can start chemo the week of the 26th of Sept.
2 weeks away.
The blood work for the thyroid came back that it is normal...so I will have to have a biopsy on that later too. But my Dr said they are watching that too...right now they want to get the port in...my heart fixed and get me started on chemo. He is not going to worry about the biopsy right now...
And...this is big...a bit of good news finally... The cancer that was found in the lymph node was ONE ISOLATED cancer cell....YAY !!!!!!!
Thank you all so much for the sweet comments about my Christopher last week.
His birthday is always a sad day for me.
And He is Now At Peace
11 hours ago